Over the last few days, I've taken a little trip...it was spontaneous, surprising. Truth be told, I talk about taking trips like these...from afar, I embrace them and look forward to the change they will bring, but once they are upon me, I find the whole prospect terrifying. Exploration of new places...or places I'd not been to for quite some time...or places to which I'd hoped I'd never return.
I didn't take a weekend in Chicago, or set off to a sunny beach for a few days, or even get away for a time of solitude and silence. Mine was a inward journey...I was forced to take an honest evaluation of some of my attitudes and motivations, my selfishness and my pride. I was taken with loving hands to a place where the road stretched far out before me, and I was compelled to see beyond the haze of the moment. There, in the quiet of my soul, I was honest with myself about myself and those around me...and then I was honest with them...confessions of knee-jerk responses, unfinished tasks and a weariness to continue. Then, I knew I was on the way back home...with renewed resolve, I began my routine once again. But that voyage within has changed me...I'm still learning, still growing. I'm so thankful I'm on the other side, but I know I need to always keep my baggage close at hand for the next unexpected journey.
And please don't think I'm heartbroken or defeated...quite the opposite, really. I rejoice in the fact that, as I decrease, He will increase. As I die to my selfish attitudes and twisted motives, Christ will be more glorified in me and through me!
We run away all the time to avoid coming face to face with ourselves.
~Author Unknown
Photos by Teresa Pizzimenti
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